Monday, September 22, 2008

Saying Goodbye to My Parents

A couple of weeks ago, I hugged my parents goodbye for the next four years.

My parents have moved across the world. They sold their house, gave us their Honda Accord, divided their belongings between my sister and me, and moved to Papua New Guinea.

When my dad first emailed to say that he and my Mom were sensing God might want them to move overseas to an area that really needed a dentist, I was excited for them, but also a little sad. I grew up for 14 years in Africa, so living across the world isn't anything new. But back then, we were all together. Now, they would be going and my sister and I would not.

When my mom told us that they were going to sell their house, and give everything to my sister and I, if we wanted it, my first thought was, "This feels like a funeral." And, in a way, it was. My mom made a list of everything in their house -- lamps, tables, sheets, her wedding dress -- and, with the help of my sister and I, divided everything up. Holly chose the basement furniture, I got some bedroom furniture. I needed some pictures for a blank wall, Holly wanted their piano. And so we went, item by item, page by page.

I did pretty well during the months leading up to their departure. And I did well the week that they stayed with us before they left.

But that all changed the moment I woke up on the morning my parents were to leave. I had a knot in my stomach. Tears that had been surprisingly absent during the past few months already were threatening to spill. I made it through breakfast, through one last family photo...and then, during our final goodbye, the floodgates broke open.

But God always has a sense of humor. Two weeks earlier, I had asked a couple of neighborhood children if they wanted to come with my kids and I to a story- and song-time at the mall. I asked them first, and then checked my calendar (perhaps not the smartest way to make plans), only to realize that was the very morning my parents would leave. But the neighbor kids were so excited that I didn't have the heart to cancel.

I had not warned these dear kids to expect Niagara Falls that morning. So they were very concerned as I cried and blew my nose about 100 times during our car ride to the mall. "It's okay, Miss Christine," they said over and over. "You'll be alright!" I guess they now know that even adults can give a good boo-hoo.

I miss my parents. For the past 15 years, I have talked to my mom every Sunday. Sometimes I would call and say, "I don't really have anything new to talk about..." and then laugh 90 minutes later as we finally got off the phone. "How can we spend an hour and a half talking about nothing?" we would wonder. (And yes, my daughter is carrying on this fine tradition.)

But I'm also really proud of my parents. They answered God's call regardless of the cost, and are blazing a trail that is affecting not just me, but also my kids.

A few weeks ago, my daughter was playing "airport." I asked her where she was going, and she smiled and said, "Papua New Guinea!" Some day, God very well may call her to Papua New Guinea, or some other country around the world. And I'll rejoice in her obedience just like I rejoice in my parents' obedience...with a few boxes of Kleenex in the process.

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Ready for school...oh wait, he doesn't go to school!


Loving that back pack.


Cleaning and playing ball...the ultimate multi-tasker.


Holly and her look-alike, Strawberry Shortcake.


Holly and her best friend.


Holly's snack of choice this afternoon...corn on the cob, uncooked.


Happy on a Sunday afternoon.


More Sunday happiness...


Yes, Mommy zoomed in just a bit too much and my face looks really big!

12 comments:

Corinne said...

Kristen-this post about your parents totally just made me cry and I had Chris read it and now we're both choked up! Thanks for sharing your heart and being willing to support God's call on everyone around you! Love you.

margaret said...

Kristen,
I'm like you--I miss your parents very much, but I'm very excited for them. And, yes, it will be exciting to see God's plan for your Holly and little Michael. God Bless You!

Jen said...

Hey Kristen! Thanks for visiting my blog. I recognize you from church but I don't think we've ever met. We'll have to fix that! My parents have never gone overseas but I have lived far from them since I graduated from high school. I have a very close relationship with my mom too and I would miss her terribly, just as you miss your mom. I will be praying for peace for you and an amazing four years for your mom and dad!

dawn said...

Strange as this may sound, reading this post was a good reminder to me of the things I need to let go of, or at least have a looser grasp of.

The prospect of selling a house, giving away possessions...so terrifying to one who too easily confuses such physical/material things for security, yet reading about your parents doing just that felt like both a funeral but also a tremendous release/relief (and I guess funerals can be both too, can't they?)

I'm sure you're still feeling a deep ache from your parents having moved so very far away, and I'm sure that ache will resurface on occasion even when you think it's gone--that's just how it is when you lose loved ones to far away (and I hope that doesn't sound glib).

But you also sound very close to your parents and to God in all of this, close in a way that transcends physical proximity and the physical markers of identity and place.

MaryD said...

I'm feeling the ache from the parent side these days...

Lisa Ridgely said...

Hi, Kristen! I'll be praying for your parents (and you guys, too)! How awesome that they were willing to go! I have a friend who grew up in PNG - they were a missionary family. I think his parents may still be there. The pics of the kids are so adorable, as always!!

Kristen said...

Thanks everyone for leaving such sweet comments! I do miss them very much. Their initial agreement is for 4 years, but they may end up staying as long as 10 years...then they would have to retire (rules of the mission agency). They hope to come back once a year, but that is never guaranteed so we will see. In the meantime, I am doing well at keeping the Kleenex company in business!

Brooke said...

Kristen,
Thanks for sharing and I will be praying for you. Can't imagine being that far away, but God will sustain you both.

So are you loving MOPS? So glad you could join us this year!

Kristen said...

Hi Brooke,
Yes!! I am loving MOPS. This is meeting a need I have had for 4 years, so it's a complete answer to prayer. My kids love it too. It's so wonderful to be with other moms, meet people, and talk without being interrupted 20 times. Thanks for the great job you guys are all doing.

Mom said...

Kristen,
Feelings mean that we have a big heart and you certainly do. I am so thankful for email and your bog so that I can still feel close to you even though I am fourteen time zones away. When we love God and His kingdom, no sacrifice is too great.
Love, Mom

Ghada Abou Chacra Tajeddine said...

Hey Kristen! I know how hard it is to be far from your parents. I have not lived in the same country as my parents for 7 years and am lucky if I see them once a year. But just knowing they are ok and God is with them makes it easier. God bless you, your parents and your beautiful family.

Stretch Mark Mama said...

I just ran past your parents' picture in their missionary magazine. I saw their last name and said to myself, "Heeeyyyy, I know those people!"